Its not like harassing a cat

Well... I'm really glad I didn't post anything yesterday. As nice as it would have been to process here, apparently people actually read my blog -- which is fine, but should also influence to some degree what I can and cannot write for the general public.

Anyhow, yesterday was pretty interesting. I went to bed pretty sorrowful and depressed (though I have found my propensity to immerse myself in self-pity correlates directly to how tired I am), and some of that evidently carried through to the morning. The day had its ups and downs, and though I was beginning to cope well by the evening, there was still no resolution. So, God and I had a chat last night.

I'm not sure if I've ever written anything about this, but God and I have an interesting relationship. I know He isn't doing things to me maliciously (to loosely paraphrase one conversation: its not like He's harassing a cat -- and you're the cat...), but I do take my life as tangible evidence that God has a sense of humor. While I've experienced challenge and hardship, it seems he has stretched me enough (for the moment) in those regimes and he is now teaching me not to take myself too seriously. I think I end up laughing directly at myself at least daily, and I can't help believe God has His hands in this -- I just hope He's laughing too.

Anyhow, what prompts this brief digression is how our conversation went last night. Now, I know God works in mysterious ways, and that He speaks differently to everyone... but through a country song?!?

The message he gave me was: "Persistence." Not quite what I expected, and definitely not in a manner I expected to hear it, but there it was all the same. The song I heard is called "The One" by Gary Allen. The Disclaimer: If you click on the link above, I am not responsible for the fact that, despite writing and performing fantastic music, Gary Allen can't make a decent music video to save his life...

"Don't rush. Though I need your touch,
I don't wanna rush your heart,
until you feel on solid ground,
until your strength is found.

[Chorus]: Girl, I'll fill those canyons in your soul
Like a river lead you home,
and I'll walk a step behind
int he shadows so you shine
Just ask it will be done,
and I will prove my love
until you're sure that I'm the one.

Somebody else was here before;
he treated you unkind.
Broken wings need time to heal
before a heart can fly.

[Chorus]

Trust in me, and you'll find a heart so true.
All I wanna do is give the best of me to you,
and stand beside you.

Just ask, it will be done,
and I will prove my love
until you're sure that I'm the one."